A worrying day with a wonderful outcome

I never thought I’d be wearing one of these bands again for a while and yet this is from todays visit to Queens hospital in Burton.

My apologies to all those who have felt that I was a “bit off”, short with them, and not achieving what they thought I should. The truth is that for the past month I haven’t been on top form, and largely because I visited my GP about occasions when I seemed to have a reflux problem He immediately started speaking about the possibility of cancer and wanted to investigate. This has involved my attendance today for a gastroscopy procedure. a most hideous experience, performed by a wonderful team of caring professionals for whom I’ll always have the highest praise.

Consequently its hung over me for a while filling my mind with all sorts of possibilities; I even worked my funeral music out (entrance to Tina Turner, “Steamy windows” and exit to Lindisfarnes “Run for Home”) and Alison was told which funeral firm and who was to lead the service (you can relax again Loraine Mellor).

I many ways the reaction was grossly over the top, as I was given a complete ALL CLEAR; no abnormalities, no tumour, no scarring, nothing. Thankfully and my gratitude to the few who knew about it and prayed for me.

I’d deliberately kept it quiet as I didn’t want sympathy and wanted to continue to be there to try to help people. However, because I’ve always tried to be open and honest about both my good times and my bad times, I felt I need to share this tonight.

Tonight I will go to bed and sleep easier.

Tonight I will go to bed with a greater understanding of the fears of others

Tonight I will go to bed grateful for a God who has held me.

Tonight I will go to bed appreciating once again the NHS, who have supported me magnificently today.

Tonight I will go to bed with a sense of those who have yet to undergo frightening treatments, such as gastroscopy procedures.

And believe me, if anyone produces what looks like a bazooka and tries to tell me its a “small camera” I may be tempted to do the wrong thing……….!

I’ve been thinking this evening about Holy Week, which has also rather been lost because of my thoughts elsewhere, and I’ve dwelt on the loneliness of Jesus, the anxiety of knowing what was to come and the result.

Firstly, the appointment came at a time when Alison had a service in her own church. We discussed it and I felt strongly that she should continue with it as the work of Jesus continues anyway. However that meant that I had to walk to the hospital and, sit in the waiting area on my own and go through it by myself. Jesus, in the Garden of Gethsemane was alone. Was he scared ? the Bible seems to suggest he was. Was he tempted to back out ? Again Scripture says he prayed “let this cup pass from me”. I too felt alone, and if I could’ve got out of it I may well have done, knowing what I was facing.

However I stayed with it because I knew it would give a definite result, and my family deserve nothing less. For me the result was amazing and I praise God for the skill, knowledge and care of the medical profession.

For Jesus the result was resurrection; job done; mission accomplished; victory achieved. We will praise and celebrate on Easter Sunday as if we’ve never praised before because we worship a God who understands our loneliness, our fear and anxiety and throughout it all holds us very dear to himself.

I feel as though I’ve been through my personal Good Friday today, but nothing compared to what God went through for me and for this world. Praise to Him for being prepared to endure the cross for us.

11 thoughts on “A worrying day with a wonderful outcome

  1. Beautifully written Mike our prayers and thoughts are with you and your lovely family. Grateful thanks for sharing.
    You know Mike dad used to say when Michael’s on form no one can write or deliver a sermon better x

  2. I am so sorry that you have had to go through such an agonizing time recently Mike. Your faith in our Lord, and his faith in you, have seen you come through relatively unscathed. I guess this time of Easter will have an even more special time for you in years to come. God bless always. Your friend Alan T

  3. great news Mike, I sympathise with the procedure it is not at all nice and the preparation I found worse.
    Enjoy the sadness and celebration of Easter

  4. Pleased to know that your worries turned out to be wrong. It is always better to get the tests done and then you know exactly what you are dealing with. I am sure that you knew that our Lord was with you each step of the way. You are in my prayers and I often think of you and Alison and the girls. It seems like yesterday when you were in Consett. Hope you can now enjoy a happy and blessed Easter. Sybil

  5. Hi Mike, thanks for sharing what seems to be a big ordeal. Iā€™m sure your testimony which is very powerful will touch many lives. It did to me. Perhaps see you at Good Friday March of Witness. Easter blessings to you and Alison. Paul šŸ™šŸ»

  6. You are always there for other people you should let people be there for you. Where would we have been when Peter had cancer if all our friends and family had not prayed and supported us..? The Lord was good to us but without the hugs and prayers of others we could feel the Lord holding us. lol xx

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