Thought that it was time to give you all an update on the hearing front. It has now been confirmed that I have lost 40% hearing in my left ear and about 20% in my right ear. Little chance of it coming back and when you consider that I only had 70% in my left ear before you can begin to imagine how much it has dropped.
Another way of gauging the level of loss is to realise that last year about 6 months ago I was chairing a meeting of about 60+ people WITHOUT any aids in at all and now if I take them out I struggle to hear someone a few feet in front of me. To add to it the infection in my left ear has returned !
“Eeeeeh, ain`t life grand ??” as the great philosopher Wallace would say to Gromit
I`ve got an appointment with the specialist on Monday 30th January and in the meantime the Ropewalk hearing clinic, in Nottingham (fantastic clinic with great staff) have increased the volume levels in my existing aids to make hearing a bit easier; trouble is I now whistle while I walk ! I think my career as a stealthy secret agent may be over.
How do I feel about it ? Frustrated ? yes. Angry ? surprisingly, yes. Worried ? Understandably, yes. Downhearted ? I have had my moments and Alison will tell you that life with me is a roller-coaster at the moment but by and large I am not downhearted for I`ve come to a stage of realisation that somehow and in someway God is going to use this and I still have a valid Ministry.
Already I`m beginning to think about how I can take up the cudgels re disability issues within my Circuit, use of microphones, loop systems etc for the deaf; large print publications for the poorly sighted and other facilities for those with mobility issues. We still live in a world where there is unseen and hidden discrimination against disabled people. Maybe this has to be a part of my work.
A very big thank-you to everyone who has prayed with me and for me; thank-you to you all for your patience, understanding and tolerance and above all else thank-you to folk from every circuit I`ve ever worked in who have taken the time to make contact and offer unconditional love. When Jesus said to Peter “upon this rock I will build my church” Peter had no idea of what would ensue but Jesus knew that a tremendous community of people would arise in his name and share that unconditional love, of which I have been privileged to receive a part of it.
All in all I don`t know what the future is going to be like, but this I know “God ain`t finished with me yet !”